Hey, I want to share something.
So, tomorrow I preach at church (8/23/24).
As I compose what I will be talking about, it seems to be talking about me more than Jesus.
For a preach, it isn’t good since I should be talking about Jesus – not about me.
My mom likes to verify my writings, so she can help me to have the preach in a better professional way, since I tend to use English dialect mixed with Spanish.
As my mom reviewed what I had done, she spoke reality – which is that I was talking more about me, than Jesus.
Perhaps it’s because I have been writing a lot, and I put myself as an example that I got so used to do that.
Also, it reminded me when I was a kid at school, getting scolded for not paying attention at school and getting the answers incorrectly.
It made me feel sad.
Everything impacted me in a negative way. It made me feel as if I was the 11-15 years old kid, having to study again for an upcoming test. It got me mad, sad, yet my mom literally gave me constructive criticism, so she isn’t at fault. I am.
I am guilty for not recognizing it or I did but didn’t speak about it.
As we speak – or as you are reading this – I am texting her about this vulnerability since it means I have to heal with this new encounter, similarly to the past one to have closures.
If I do, I will heal and mature and move to perfection – which in Greek is maturity.
This feeling is pridefulness, low self-esteem, and naiveness. And I don’t want that.
If I don’t take this out of my system, I will linger and God knows how long.
This is why we should focus on Him.
You and I, can find what we are looking for within yourself in Him. This world has nothing to offer – what our soul seeks/needs.
1 Peter 5:7 says: “Cast all your cares, anxieties, worries, and concerns on God, for He cares about you.”
If you have a bothersome situation, pray, ask for help.
He won’t answer you how we expect. He could answer you through a sign.
Clearly, He will definitely by the Bible or from a true fellow Christian that knows the Bible.
Take care.